the grains of sand keep falling down 1 by 1

the seconds of time moving as each tear from your eyes roll down your cheeks

i tilt the hourglass to catch every tear of yours

and so time will stop , so i could spend eternity with you .

ohhhhh , ohhhh , oooooohhhh~

exams are here ! first day ! wohoo ! mother tongue made me sleep.
stayed back for art " meeting " .
haha , tired ehs. i shall embrace the comfort of my bed ! hahaha. see ya . and goodluck ! (:


could this be it ?

the moment where the heart beat is lost .

take a moment to feel it . take a moment to see the sights . take the moment to breath .

start walking and stop running , seeing is believing to ones own eyes.

take the first step . take the first breathe of sunshine , youre gonna need it .

so , baby , lets not waste time watching the sunset and start making our own .

start making our own story .

-i suck . LOL . aiyoo . brain dead ssia .. takecare dudes..

HEYYOOOO.
its the weekend and exams are round the corner .
sucks !! sucks i tell you ..
just got art topic for end of year . and guess what mr isham go take my qns paper and nvr give back ...
LOL ! NVM ! I GOT GOOD MEMORY .
iam gonna do spiral structures ! its gonna be mind blowing man.. after mr isham gave us the prep talk ..-.-ll i take those type of talks ..
plus , i need really really raelly really really need to study for maths. the test today totally blew my mind away ...
what pot and larger pot ..lost totall confusion ! gonna cramp my brain . cramp like theres no tmr uhs !
oh yeah . i walked to art class without my shoes tdy.. thanks to someone uhs but i walked proudly to artroom with my socks ! wahaha .
guess thats all . iam poooop---eddd.
see ya blog . damn , iam a lil bit stress.

DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN !
hari raya just dosnt feel like one .
but cool stuff happened.
but now ... SUCKS !
nneeeed to work on my studies .
iam feeling damn blank .
blank blank blank . sit in class and stare . no wonder they make the song stop and stare .
damn tired also . sorry if this ends up like a complaining list ...

rules and regulations are meant to to broken
its a natural cycle that we follow
try breaking them
see how it feels . a rush to head and youre flying high .
weeeee......

-crazy as it seems iam actually not crazy .

HELLO ! . today was tiring ..
the whole house went overdrive to get things done for hari raya !
oh yeah ! thats me there with the toiletbowl hair cut (: haha . the girl is samantha chiam peiwen. my classmate , basketballer and alot of other things .
woke up at 1.30 by my dad . mum called asked to meet her at market . ermm . rushed to shower and stuff . met her and bought alot of stuffs . '
dinner was awesome . but sis and bro quarrelled a lil bit . usual ehs ..
not really excited for hari raya . not sure why . but hecks . iam goona celebrate it cause everyone is excited for it and the least is i should be happy . weee !
well , thats it for now .
hope , i get my ang pao . i have a wishlist ! =D

Goodnight ! (:

HELLO !
blog`s been dead for a long time . / sorry ayys . lappy was unavailable.
the weeeks were great . had my hair turned to bangs by mdm zaleha .. well , thanks..keeep saying my hair is long .. ~_~. haha , nvm her ahs.
it aint have bad except that you`ll gain new nicknames like toilet bowl and stuff ...
it will grow back !!! please do D: . haha .

i guess iam improving in maths . thats good to know . gonna try my best for end of year .
ermmm . have to keep pushing myself now . ahhh . so lazy but have to . no choice . haha

well , thats all . haha !! really ... i have nothing to write . CHAW !

keep my head in the clouds
never felt like this before
are you hiding behind a mask
does your back hold a knife?
iam afraid to move
fear grips me stiff
but i`ll break away from the chains that bind me
i`ll run towards the light
towards the depths of my heart
and in that i`ll find the true meaning of love ..

just when you thought that the day was gonna rock it turns bad and eats you up .hmmmm ... i`ve been getting alot of that days nowadays.. so many days ! damn , dad starting to talk about his childhood . nice stories , esp about the slushies ... ermmmm , i wonder . haha . so this weeek has been practically fine . just super duper tired . been coming late to school for 3 weeks and guess what? no detention and suspension ! i rock ! =D . saw tasneem today .. haha . well thats all .
-takecare and have fun world !



the hand strikes 12

the clouds covering the moon

i stand face to face with you

lips froze

can my heartbeat get any faster ?

i hear you breathing ....

head goes blank , blood rush .

sparkle like a star your eyes

i`ll watch them for now...

- IGNORANCE IS MY NEW BEST FRIEND .
-PRESENTING ! (DRUMROLL YOU ASS ! )

PAAAARRRRAAAAMMMMOOORRREEEE !!! =DDD my favourite band .

plus theres hayley . !!! =D super hot ! yeah ! i like her ! shes my idol in some wayy i think ..
haha . anyways , monday was fine . haha bus all the wayy to boon lay cause i talk alien to shidah haha . ummm . iam tired . so bye bye blog . i dont know what to post ahh . see ya ! takcare !

PS./ oh yeah , listen to paramore`s new album when it hits the stores ! =D yeah !!

PS>/ dont listen to the people on my tagboard . they`re just kukubirdish in the head . i dont love indian girls or chinese girls or malay girls . i love only hayley ! =D

when it rains
here i stand drenched ,
flashbacks of you and me
our time and tale of romance under these clouds
no great storm or wind could tear us apart
but to no end it seems
your heart grew apart from mine
now the raindrops , be my tears
a never ending river flows in me
crying
crying that one day you`ll be back
and i`ll see that sunny smile of yours in my heart once again ..



PS./ this is mine !!!

you make me think i am dreaming
you make me think i'm living in a perfect dream
this is the moment, a moment where i fall deep into you
you made me embrace this moment to the fullest
i'll take you to the moon,
i`ll take you to the moon to see the angels
angels that look as perfect as you


PS./ credits go to ZILINN ( she editted my reall poem which was so much better !) haha ! kidding lah . hahaaha. she edited 2/4 of it . and now she likes poetry .. why !?! you may ask ? its because i influence her lahh . she owes me ! =D

can you feel it ?

if youre the moon then i`ll be your sky

i`ll wait for the night , waiting for you

watching you shine with the sun`s light

iam the sky that you`re in . the sky that will hold you tight since the beginning of time .


-P.s/ tired tired tired ,, and iam seeing things .. crap ! haha (: have a great weekend guys !

i feel so numb , i feel so numb

i feel so weak when your presence is near

your scent lingers in the aiir like the warm morning

a cry for you pour from my mouth

my eyes would bleed not seeing you ever again

a ghost of you walks in the cold night

my hand couldnt reach , reach for me baby , iam waiting for you tonight.

stars calling you out , call my name once more ....

- SEE that ?!
- ITS HAYLEY WILLIAMS !
-SHES MY IDOL !
-DANG ! SHES HAWT !
-IAM IN LOVE WITH HER !
- =DDDD.
-cant get enough of your cherry red lips

-like blossoms of the spring

-i stick my tongue out and catching every single petal that falls

-your smile radiates like the suun , warms up my cheeks that

burst into smiles .





P.S / this is so gay ! =D

you take my breathe away ,

i see the fear in your eyes

a thousand needles pierce through your heart

it bleeds endlessly like the lies you told

cry me a puddle of deceit

i`ll lick every single drop it , darling ...

your starry eyes it leaves me breathless .

the fantasy

do you bleed , do you love , do you feel pain ?

i smile for the morning sun to rise

i sleeep waiting for dawn to wake me up

i live for god has purpose for me

i die for that purpose has been served

i embrace my existence with your touch

but the skies call my name

the moon my star

the sun my light

my dreams a sign

i end it all

with the beating of your heart

and my fantasy


- P.S; i skipped school today , i feeel happy !

Turn off this light, call my name

Don't talk, just ride

Who wouldn't let you be all about,

About me

I'm only trying to work this out

So, if you call me at all

Don't tell me that I'm ordinary

Cause I won't be passing you, please don't leave.

Oh, I hear you breathing on the line

Oh baby girl, I'm not your type

I'll leave you hurting every night

So I won't be coming back

Who wouldn't let me be all alone

Who wouldn't let me be all alone

Who wouldn't let you scream ohh to a soft pillow...



-FUCK EVERYTHING LAHH . CHIBYE . I HATE MYSELF LAH . CHIBYE CHIBYE CHIBYE CHIBYE CHIBYE . KNN . FUCK FUCK FUCK . blank blank blank blank . feeel so bloody blank .
write me up with your pen . my eyes wanna see your pen move acrosss the pages , write me a story . im tired of living , god . ARGH . WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY . DONT GO , PLEASE ... ARGH ... hahahahahaha , this sounds so pathetic man . like a cry baby . . nvm ... bye bye blog . i hate my blog i hate my life , i hate myself most of all . bye bye .

hold the gun close to my head

don`t pull the trigger just yet , darling

flash back memories of you and me

your touch never felt so paralyzing before

i am cold stiff

can you see the fear in my eyes?

my soul tortured by dreams of you

so give me this one last chance

to say this;

lean close,

" i love you "

- disappear , i shall sleep once more .

winds blowing me
closer to the edge is where i stand
the edge of my heart
pulsing blood rushes through my head
even in my death
the light
that shone through my painful darkness
was a blinding light of your eternal smile .

a moment to be real ?

shit lah . Kimmy Poopypants.

i feeeeeel miserabble . i mean like serious .

fuck it . i suck . iam running dry . i need new poems to keep me going . i need to dream again
i wanna feeel you baby . make me fly . fly high so high that the sun will burn my wings away and i`ll fall into your arms . hold me close for thats the only thing i wanna do right now . i wanna be the one that you think of . your drug . love a chemical so widely misunderstood . i stand before it . confuse and tired . sick of it really . i keeep coming back for more cause i want you . i really do .


stop this fucking addiction god , iam dancing on your mighty palm .
Pull my strings ....
A puppet i may be .
i long to be real
real to feel whats life
real to feel love again
real to taste your lips
push me aside as you wish
keeep me hanging by your thread
i`ll wait for the day for the wish
the wish of being real once again .


god , that sucked . ARGH ...

Ladies and gentlemen
Come from far come from wide
The moment you've all been waiting for
Tonight, join us as we explore the spine-chilling mystery of death
And the miracle of resurrection !!!!

So I'll toast every beat of my heart like a miracle.


I like your starry eyes
They yell, "Surprise, surprise!"


For you I'd count the salt under the sea

haha !!! random thoughts .


sch sucks ... friday worst day cause i overslept and most of my frens didnt come to school . so lonely . thank god still got joshua and rayen
NASRY, SHEIZAL , HIERRO ! COME BACK SCHOOL LAH ! I MISS YOU FUCKING PEOPLE LEH .. P.S the class is toooooo quiet without you guys .


take my hand cause iam reaching out to you baby , but will you take it ?
iam waiting . uncertainty fills me up . i want you but do you want me ?


i guess i can only dream of holding you close .

Do you know
How this feels to see your face when I close my eyes
do you know
that you leave me breathless...
do you know
that the spark in your eyes
warms up my soul
do you know
that i love you ?
cause every inch of you
leaves me wanting more ...

HEYYO BITCHES ! haha !!!
life is such a bore especially if youre sick .
stuck at home for ermmm 5 days?well , look on the brightside , i can skip art lessons !
3 cheers for skipping art !! haha . iam so dead man , havent even started on my june assignments yet / hisham will kill me ! . buy me a coffin 1st yeah . (:
ermmm , thats all folks ! sick boy needs his rest . back to school on tuesday ! YESH ! =D

Love ; flashes of light in your heart that causes you to act without using your brain .
heartbeat races to a point where you seem breathless when face to face with the one you adore.your head goes blank . your hands start to sweat . MOST OF ALL !! YOU BECOME ONE PATHETIC LOSER WHO CANT STOP THINKING NOTHING OTHER THAN THAT BOY/GIRL ALL DAY ! .
Warning! too much of this could kill you . but who cares ! we only want more ! =D
Possible side effects; memory loss , fear of sharp objects and the fear of not wearing pants.

long letters written in lipstick
and here i lay covered by your fingerprints
the suns coming up
i can tell you that
its shining for you
and with such grace
you shine through me
and with such grace
its never been this hard
to say that
i`ve never felt anything like this before
ooooh
i`ll say this once more just for you
to know that
i`ve fallen for you
faster than before ....
and i`ll chase you into the dark .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER ! YOURE TURNING ... i forget ..??
haha, so bad of me ayy.. nvm . theres a surprise party for her . too bad she dosent know..
haha . my family acted so well. that she acutally is in a bad mood rite. now thinkking we all forgot her birthday. hahahahahaha !!! =DD . well, see ya duddes.


ohyeah... i miss you.


such a lovely day to be tortured by dreams of you.

damn tired and sleepy in school today . monday was a waste . didnt go out with basil and frens . sad really damn stupid get grounded .... left wallet at home , haha , dumb uh me . no money go back home ... stupid ! . but my hero saved me ! NASRULHAQ ! thanks ! =D haha . cooked fried noodle .now is the part where iam suppose to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. really tired uh people . need change my sleeping habits ; well , thats all i guess .bye duddess


like a lover grasp upon the dark night
i hold you close and tight
fearing that the night might take you away from me
god ! oh god !
i plead , i scream
stay with me my dear
my soul screams your name
tearing the midnight sky apart
hold me close
cause i wanna breathe you
i wanna wake up in your arms
tonight .

There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night
-Death cab for cutie .

thats how iam feeling rite now . empty . hahahhaha ! isit cool or what ?
i bet no . huh . well , who cares . she didnt . wwhy should i . (:
the week was okay i guess . i survived ,bitch ! =DD
next thing to do : RULE THE WORLD WITH A MULTI COLOURED LOLLY! .

-byes duddes.

tired tired tired tired ! been falling asleep most of the time at school.

school is such a stupid thing even though its suppose to make you clever.rite? haha
laying waste at school dudes , my eyes cant seem to open up and pay attention to my teachers unless iam making stupid remarks . haha . dont know about myself these days , i feel so strange like something is out of place in me. yeahh , life sucks ... rite about now...

my most recent poem. hope you guys like it ... i just hate how it ends .


Hey,
can you see me baby ?
i`am waving to you , in the cold winds of the north
northern lights , a spectrum of colors
it reminds me of you .
i oh so miss you .
i miss your warmth that you bring to my heart on this cold lonely night .
i wish you could be with me right now , i know that you hear me
hear my cries for you for you ,
for our hearts are one
in this winter sonata .

brain deaadd !

if constellations could tell me which path i should walk
i would walk the path to you , my dear .
our history will fill the sky with endless tales of romantics .
eternal light is what our love will be
leading us through this darkened world.
our hands clasped so tight ,
igniting this passion that lay dormant .
eternal flame of sunshine burns from our hearts
filling it with love like fountain that brings life from within .
i`ll wake up
wake up
to see that pretty face of yours, darling

Love.

through this gates i walk ,
angels leading me .
on these clouds which i lay
with you by my side,
hands locking .
we wait .
god`s magnificent gift to us
the gift,
the gift of love .

boring ahs

Beautiful, you know you leave me breathless when you fall into my eyes
My heart belongs to you my angel ..
Nothing in this world could be compared to you
my angel .
Me, you
the stars and moon.
we drift when we`re locked in this embrace like vines that intertwine
my heart have never felt anything so real and pure
as your love , my angel .
Take me to the skies
as we fly through the night as our story
fills the midnight sky.
I`ll be the one that carries you
to heaven ,
I`ll be the one that loves you .
I`ll be here forever .
Forever i`ll be yours .

shidah`s birthday poem .

your eyes
that sparkle of a star lies within your eye
your smile
as bright as any sunshine
love,
well , love is you
your`re the reason why i breathe
your`re the reason why the sunsets and rise
your`re the reason why am i here
the reason i wake up every day
every inch of you is as sweet as caramel
but nothing is really sweet as your love .
cause without you there is really nothing sweet about love

starlight .

The stars belong to you tonight my dear.
Angels hide among the clouds , playing the sweet melody of which lovers dance to
You and me
We dance under the starlight .
An embrace only so pure only that could be forged by love .
Say you never leave my side , i need you tonight .
Even the gods cant separate us now ,
Its me and you baby .
We fly to the moon.
Forever dancing to the melodies of that they call love ..

a reason for broken wings

Shes an angel with a broken wing
The heavens sing her name
The stars cry for her .
Moonlight reflected on her eyes,
deep blue as the oceans.
I plunge upon those waves ,
I`ll hold her hand
I wont let her fall again .
A Reason For Broken Wings .

seeing stars

I'm thinking of your bright blues eyes,
Brighter than the stars that lit the skies,
An angel in disguise
I wanna hold you in my arms tonight
I can't forget those bright blue eyes,
Can't forget the moment they met mine .

how its suppose to be .

i love you .

That`s my secret.
No pretty drawings , No poems.
No hearts or weird writings .

I love you .

the second that you say ..

Did you know you have a special way
of turning around my terrible days
you make all the bad things go away
the second that you say "hello"

it's the way that you talk, that you laugh that you smile
if beauty was inches you'd go on for miles
it's the way that you make everything seem worth while
the second that you say "hello"

it's the way every love song reminds me of you
along with the stars and the sunset here too
it's the way that you make the sky seem much more blue
the second that you say "hello"

So if love is a drug then I guess I'm addicted
all I want is to have yours, it's making my heart sick
goodbye is what broke it and you are what fixed it
the second that you said hello


STRAWBERRY SUNDAE ! i know this is crap .. well yeah ! =D

Wake me up

you take my breath away...
but i'll never taste your lips
as fate keeps me locked away
I must close my eyes to see your face
emptiness has darkened my eyes
as I hopelessly beg for my life to end
god has forsaken me
drag me to eternal darkness ,where i seem to fit.
forever i shall sleep.

into the night

if you hear this wherever you are
just know I need you here
i need you near me now
you were brighter than the pale white moon
reflected in your eyes
so I guess it's no surprise
i can't forget you
no matter what I do

i will always carry you in my heart
you'll always be my shooting star
autumn days will fade away
but memories will always stay the same

pull me closer .

I can't help but think of you everyday
But I know we'll be together some day

Fall is gone
Winter is here
I spent all December just wanting you near
So I'm singing these words in the hope that you'll hear
You're the best thing that happened this year

I've fallen in love honestly
So I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
In the hope that these words that I say make you see
You mean more than the world does to me

Let me be honest with you
When I said I loved you it was more than the truth
You see, with each lonely night and day that I must go through
Well they just bring me closer to you .

This bitter pill he swallows takes the tension,
he's lost control of his hands; control of steps,
somewhere he fears,
was almost sure; could never happen to him,
when this pill is dissolved in his suffering body,
he'll lay there stiff and shamefully.

four letter lie

A love you light is a love soon gone
If this is it
Don't bother cause this love is a lie

But I still hold your breath so you won't leave
Ghost on the altar
We breathe, don't leave

Say that the night sings alone
And if there's a God
Then I'm letting Him go
All for you, you alone .